Baking a cake for my man!
Friday, May 24, 2013
In an astounding twist of fate, Tommy (the boyfriend) and I both have tonight off! So I'm at his place, and we're going to dink around, have a friend over, maybe splurge with a bit of rum, and probably have a bunch of butt sex later tonight.
Thursday, May 23, 2013
For some of us, this process is slower than it is for others. I am a 31 year old man, and there are still 3 people that matter to me, that I have yet to tell that I'm gay. My father, my grandfather (as you may remember, my grandmother passed away in October), and my brother. The rest of my immediate family- my mother and other brother are both incredibly supportive. I have justified my secrecy for various reasons, depending on the individual. My grandparents were the sticking point. When I came out to my mother, she echoed my thoughts- that my grandparents cannot find out. Since my father is close to my grandparents, my mother thought it best that I not tell him yet, either. My dad has the ability to keep a secret akin to a teenage girl who just got the juiciest gossip and an unlimited texting plan for her new iPhone. Out of respect for her, I have not yet told him. As for my brother... honestly, if he hasn't figured it out by now, he's an idiot. His wife is very conservative, and they have two beautiful kids that are a big part of my life. I used to worry that my being gay would give her cause to not allow me to see them. But times are changing, and they are changing fast and I've seen this change in attitude slowly happen with my sister-in-law.
I'm getting really tired. I'm tired of hiding. I literally only have three toes still in the closet, but those three toes... those three tiny, but very important toes are keeping me from running free- from doing the things with my life that I want to do. My art, my writing, my performing, my fucking mark on the world... I can't make it if I remain chained to that soul-draining closet door.
I can see my whole future lying directly in front of me, just waiting for me to run full blast into it's infinite horizon...
...and I am utterly terrified to take that last step out of that door.
Wednesday, May 22, 2013
An original painting by moi, photographed on my iPhone and filtered through Instagram:
Low tide on Tampa Bay. My boyfriend lives in an apartment complex that is literally right on the shore of Tampa Bay, which is North America's largest estuary. Notice the empty beer bottle... go USA!
The Atrium in the Polynesian Resort at Walt Disney World:
Inside the Polynesian Resort:
Outside the Polynesian Resort:
Tuesday, May 21, 2013
Monday, May 20, 2013
Hey everyone! Sorry for the utter neglect. Life has been an absolute roller coaster for the last few months. I'm working a lot, and seeing a new guy. He's wonderful. In fact, he and I are going out tonight to get some drinks with Tito and his boyfriend, and in my nostalgia, I decided it was high time that I attempt to start posting again. I will do my best to keep this thing going, as it still (to my shock) gets regular traffic.
So here's to the future!